| I started a website at
Angelfire in 1995 after Christy's death. It was my way of
coping with my loss. It became an obsession to get justice for
my grandchild. As the years passed I learned better web
design, creating my own backgrounds and graphics. Christy was my
inspiration. Today, my background sets are on a sites for
others to take, and my memorial sets are there for others, who
grieve the loss of a loved one. I still though, have no closure
and my pain sometimes is too intense to bear.
I have accepted her death, but I can not
accept the unanswered questions, the wondering what she went
through that cold winter night over ten years ago. My heart
breaks at the thought of my first born grandchild all alone in
the dark and cold when she died. It also breaks at the
indifference from the judicial system. At least we had her body
to bury. We know that she is dead.
The news the past few months
has been about Natalee Hallaway. My heart goes out to her loved
ones, yet when I hear the news casters say that couldn't happen
in the United States, I want to scream loud enough for them to
hear and tell them it happens far too often, and cover up is a
daily occurrence that they never hear about. I could write pages
about deaths that were filed away as natural, or heart attack,
and never even an autopsy to determine the cause of death.
Deaths I know should have been investigated but were not. I will
give some examples in another section of my site. All too often
small town officials can not accept homicide in their environment.
Unless it is a person with a gun shot wound, or a drug related
crime, they try to make excuses and will not accept that one of
their local "good boys" would be capable of homicide.
They just sweep it under the rug and try to forget. The
families of victims' can not forget and we carry our burdens for
the rest of our lives while the officials go on as if nothing
had occurred.
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